Hi SC, I have to agree with Glam, You had a long m and it is bound to take you a long time to get over it. (not sure if you are D or not) but whatever don't try to play tit for tat you will only get burned. I so understand the things you want me too but we do have to be healed fully to make that happen.
I guess looking does no harm but be careful you are v vunerable at the moment.