Is he he telling you all this stuff himself? If so, that's just plain cruel. That's why you need LC/NC, so you won't have to listen to his crap. Don't bother attempting to be friends with him right now-- wait until you're stronger/more detached (at which point you may no longer care to).
You are still giving him too much headspace, but it might not be such a bad thing for you to get mad at/hate him for a while-- AS LONG AS YOU DON'T ACT OUT ON IT. Remember, living well is the best revenge!
You are sounding a bit better lately.
Yes he told me this on the phone. Word was getting around town and my son called him to find out the truth to it. He then told son about proposing marriage to her. I called xh after son talked to him and left him a message. He called me back and we spoke for a min. He told me he didnt inted to get married so soon. I did ask some questions, I know I shouldnt have, but I wanted to know what his plans were. I k now I shouldnt care, but its like I take a giant leap forward and then two steps back. We live in a small town and I had rather hear these things from the horses mouth, so to speak. I did break down when seeing the ring. I broke down and looked at her myspace, only to see a pic of the ring, I never even got one from him and I wanted to see if he spent alot of money on it. I was curious and yest it hurt, I knew it would. As I was saying I broke down and left him another message. I told him I didnt know what to think anymore and that it hurt me to see him spending that kind of money on her, when his son needs clothes for summer and I am struggling. Yes I know we are divorced and I am on my own, but he put me here, so I get angry at him. I am doing better, Thank You. It's times like these that get to me. I told him its not like she got a prize, it was just the fact of the money he was spending (which by the way, I dont know where the heck he got it).
