Tomorrow is Easter Sunday; my D and I have my mum staying from Australia, plus my best friend from London and her two sons. H wants to see D tomorrow with a view for her spending time with her two half sisters (from H's first marriage). I has reminded me how his family have shut me out over the last few months. I really miss my step-daughters (26 and 15). I miss his family, the only one I permanently have here. (Not one member has made contact with me) H has made it quite clear that he wants our D to have a lovely Easter with each of us individually in our own separate ways. H is so determined to re-establish his life, and seems to be doing so. He is also pushing legal proceedings, wanting to sort stuff out quickly. I feel so discarded and abandoned; my life has changed overnight with his decision. Am trying to pick up the pieces slowly and surely and regain my power. Forgive me but am having a down day. Trying hard to not think about what is happening now, but trying to manifest a future of reconciliation. But Very Hard.
