Snodderly have you give up on me? Is that why you have quit posting? If so, I am sorry I let you down.
I have to tell you all I have really had a setback tonight. Xh bought gf a very expensive ring. It hurts me that he can do this, but left us in such a financial mess and refused to help us out. Son and I are losing our home and xh is buying a ring. Listen at this. Xh said they may have a big wedding and kids was NOT out of the question. He said he wanted to erase the past with me. He said he is starting over and doing things different. He said he was under too much stress and had to leave. He said he became very unhappy. In my opinion, he is trying to start from early teenageish years. No kids yet, no financial burden with her. Just new everything. BUT that isnt fair to son and I. I am sorry, I know I am giving them too much head room, but I am MAD. I am very angry at xh. How can he just drop us and go off and try to create another new life like we never existed?
How can I let go of this anger? I want to NOT be hurt anymore by what he is doing. I want rid of all of this pain.
