Btw, the counselor Nathan is seeing told us to continue doing 'family' things since we get along so well, it is good for the children to see us as still a family...
Then again she also recommended MC. So I guess if we keep doing family stuff because she thinks its a good idea we should be in MC, too....
Actually, last night I took part in a 24-hr prayer vigil at my church. My hour was from 2:30-3:30 a.m. I was the only one in the sanctuary; the youth pastor was in the church basement from midnight-four so no one would be 'alone' in the middle of the night, but I didn't speak to him.
Anyway, it was amazing to be there in the dark of night by myself. Just a few candles flickering and one small spotlight turned on, everything else dark. I prayed and talked to God for the whole hour. Very moving. I talked out all my thoughts for my family, my church, my husband, myself, etc etc. I actually feel pretty detached because I know God has a plan for me and it isn't my job to fix my life, it is my job to trust Him and walk forward boldly even though I don't know what lies ahead.
Ironically, Dan texted me last night out of the blue, just to tell me it was windy on his road trip to Wichita. We traded texts about 5 times and then I just said Good Night and stopped. Then he called again this morning to tell me he turned around and didn't go all the way to Wichita b/c of storms, so he was back at work in Omaha. He actually said, "I just wanted to call to let you know I was here"...Then he called again just a minute ago and said he was planning on coming in for the evening, was just leaving work.
I said, "Good, I need to go wash and vacuum my car, I can do that once you are here." I am not trying to provoke anything, it is just the truth. I have things I need to do!
