Newly Seperated - What To Do?

[Uncool Cat]

It's been ten days since my last post. I've moved my stuff out of my house and into a nearby rental. I'm not happy about it, but it's a dang site better than living with my dad. It's a nice little 2 bed 1.5 bath house.

I've had the boys over two days now, and they will be with me through the Easter weekend. I'm doing OK GALing for right now. I haven't had any slips. I haven't called her, wrote her, gotten emotional with her etc.

Of course she hasn't called to talk to me either, but no big surprise there. She did take a quick look at the place yesterday when she dropped the boys off. She said that it looked nice, and I think she was genuine. I hope that it showed her, even if just a little bit, that I don't really need her. I can take care of myself. I do want her, and I don't want my marriage to end, but I want her to know that I don't neeeed her. I hope that makes sense.

My youngest son, who is not as emotional and can be matter-of-fact, said to me the other day, "Dad, why can't you move back home? It would be so much easier." This was a little tough for me. Luckily, since he's 5, I was able to just tell him that wasn't possible right now. It just ticks me off that even the 5 year old makes more sense than my W.

One weird thing that I thought I would mention. My W has been very nice about making sure I have the things I need for the new place. She even packed some things up for me. I just don't get it. When it comes to personal things, she barely says polite things like hello, goodbye, thank you, etc. But, when it comes to me seeing the boys, having what I need for the new place, or even what to get the boys for Easter, she's basically her old self. I realize this isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it still bugs me. I just wish I find a way to get through to that other part of her.

I have to go. I'm starting to make myself emotional when I haven't been this way in a day or two. I'll be happy to hear from anyone out there. Thanks for the comments.