He has been home due to a work related injury for the last year which has taken a big hit on him. Now the doctors are saying he may not return to his profession even with the surgeries. He was becoming emotionaly distance and depressed before he left. But he wouldnt allow me to help him. He meet this woman online and has already made a trip to see her and thinks its the greatest thing in the world right now. I know that I could have done some things different, but I didnt unfortunately. We dont have much communication right now cause I am honoring his wishes of having space. He has started being a little more civil to me which is a blessing all its own. I love this man more than anything and am willing to do what I have to do to change my negative behaviors and show him that its worth staying even though hes already talking divorce and moving out of state. This has been hard and I do have the best of our years here with me. He loves his kids and is making a efoort with them in all of this, but I am just praying that God will help restore my marriage. I think the fighting also lead to him walking. I can change all of this, I know I can. Sorry I cant give you your miller, but thanks for responding to me. Hope you read this.
