Hey My Lady!!! Nice to hear from you! No, I dont think I got your message. Use the email perhaps?
About H, it's all a matter of how you look at things. So far I have been able to look at my kids happiness and have it alter the actual picture of the situation between him and me. But it's becoming less and less possible. The more time we spend like this, the more confident I get I should end this Marriage. And THAT is what sucks. One would think that after getting in touch with each other again, it should be harder to think of the end. Well, it isnt. It is easier.
I am letting it play out because last time we dicussed D I was stressed out. I thought then that the fear of lossing him woke up the last traces of love I have. Now, I am not so sure about it.
Yes it would be prefect to have our family back. It would be amazing if we could love each other again and feel comfortable and loving and caring again. But, it isnt happening. I can stay in this sitch for years, until he probably finds a girl he will fall in love with and leaves, but I dont want to waste precious time hoping and wishing something will eventually change. So far, Ive seen no such intention.
I have to decide he is not what I want and need. I am getting there. Afteral, love is a decision, no? K
