Ali, when I do call him he can never talk to me.He calls me back. It is weird because we have nothing to say to each other. It's always about our kids, what they did today, what they asked yesterday, nothing else.
I did ask him to meet with me yesterday. I did tell him I wasnt working and he could have come over to sleep here for example. He said he couldnt meet with me in the morning while it turned out he was sleeping... I did say I wanted a coffee and we grabbed one form Starbucks but when we sat down , after 5 minutes he said he needed to go to work. I do ask him questions about his work, the only thing we can talk about. I cant talk to him about how I feel, he immediately sees it as pressure and I am fed up with being the clingy, needy one.
I have tried different things all these months which you all seem to forget. Hugging him, kissing him, calling him etc etc. And I dont think he is trying AT ALL. He is only doing what comes easy to him. What doesnt mess up his schedule. What is convinient. I think you are all wrong and excuse me for saying that. ((T)) I am not wishing for a R with my H, seeing crumbs as something. Crumbs are crumbs. And we are supposed to be IN a relationship. It's not DBing anymore in the sense of what it was a year ago.
We are supposed to be giving our best to fix things, lessen the distance between us, create memories, overcome hurt and pain caused in the past, connect. We are not...wondering what each other wants. We are supposed to want the same thing.
You guys keep telling me to be happy with ...nothing. I am sorry. One thing DBing taught me is not to underestimate myself. And I will not. K
