No I do K its just that it got too late and I didnt want him to get a text message in the evening... I wondered if he might be with her and my intuition said, having a showdown and letting her know (as he once did to me 2 days before the S) that he was going away to think... but.. I could be wrong about that !!!
Well.. I am glad you are think it was cool.. I dont know, its a 3 1/2 hour car journey flat out and a 4 hour train ride... and we are both leaving just before 9.. so its a bit mean to be honest and ridiculous that he isnt driving me. Partly I feel its bad that he wont even sit in a car with me to drive home and partly I feel its good, as he is said he wanted "time to think" which can only be a good thing. And at least I was 'cool' about it and although he might've dreaded letting me know, I then sent him jokey texts and he must have felt relieved and uplifted by that at least.
I saw G and Cher last night.. they seem ok off and on, but we all had a brilliant night out, a group of us at band night, so I genuinely enjoy things nowadays, which is a relief. G straight away asked me how I was feeling, how was the other night, anyting sorted? I said, no! Just emotion.. he said... you properly destroyed each other.. you were BOTH crying and looked awful. Gosh, it must have looked bad, no wonder if ex is a bit embarressed afterwards.
SO .. off now back home on my train... speak to you all from the other side.
