It's alway amazing to me how a night of sleep can make things seem better in the AM. Off the pity party, thanks Making_It, and back to positive thoughts.
Learned today that H found a room to rent and will be leaving the family cabin. See this as a good thing - cabin free for the rest of the family to retreat to. Cheaper than an apt so more likely he'll follow through on paying his bills. No lease so if things turn around, it'd be easier for him to move back home.
First day that H's paycheck wasn't in the account (b/c he moved it away somewhere). I thought I handled it well.. just a short text acknowledging the change and if nothing was pending I'd cancel his debit card, etc. He wrote back "yeah", whatever that means... but I think I'm back to doing a good job of being friendly but unemotional. I have to protect myself and the kids, but I don't have to be a witch about it. Just friendly and factual.
What I'd give for H to have a real conversation... ask how I am, talk about the kids or life or anything... 8 days since last face-to-face and it will be much longer I suspect. That's the hardest part, I think... once you start practicing the GAL, "what if", etc. you can't help but hope for quick results. And they aren't coming, and probably won't anytime soon. That part stinks. I want my quick fix! :-)
