Quote: I just finished and passed my emt course, so I will be volunteering with the towns ambulance co.
Congratulations! LL.
Quote: nothing is taboo in my world. I think that's what intimidates some people when they first meet me.
Despite that, I'd better tell you what I was thinking with this line of questioning. I just read through a book "Dance of Intimacy" by Harriet Lerner (pink cover for woman readers... I had a hard time hiding the cover on the bus, digression...) I don't think it has all the answer, but it seems to point out some areas that you have repeatedly expressed your dissatisfaction in R. The recommendation the book has is to focus on yourself, including your first family, your own value career, your own value system, and learn to express them in a calm and non-judgemental way, while sharing your own vulnerability. The feeling of emotional intimacy in your R would come after that without focusing on your R.
Again, I can understand your frustration and mistrust for the M, and I realize that many of your expression of feelings is more on venting than a sign of a complete dissatisfaction, knowing you are a person of deep reflections. I don't have a magic solution, nor is the book the answer to everything. Just an idea that I came across and that I hope can be of use to you, who are an envy for many on this BB that you got your M back. After all, we all look for something warm and fulfilling in a R in our life time, even though I realize nothing is happily ever after in life...
