Thanks a bunch for the feedback and book suggestions. Just to add to my recent post.. I am in process of getting a poly on monday to which he has agreed to go to.. He said that they are only 85% correct.. So i guess if it touches on a tough question he may pull the 5th and say it was an error in the test..
I also went to a couple of psychics and clarivoyants to help my heart and they also said there was another person out there and gave me same description and one mentioned that he was going to deny any wrong doing even through the polygraph.. Funny enough she said that the other woman will try to contact me after the poly gets done and that he is keeping her for the sexual side and me for the wifey part...
I spoke to husband last night about not being able to let go and he said "what more do you want? I have apologized for what I did 4 years ago" I said it isn't that you apologized it is that you still don't believe what you did is wrong, and you have never made it up to me. He asked what do you mean? I said well, you talked personally with her, but you never do with me.. You talked sexually with her and never did with me.. To this day he just gives me the need to know details of how his day is.. It is like being in a house share situation with not much else left.. He said that is him and it isn't going to change.. I said, well other people seem to get more conversation out of you and all i get is the daily running commentary on what I did.. There is just no emotions anymore like there used to be and it really hurts. Why doesn't he get it?
He still puts therapy on me and says he doesn't have time as he is working 2 people's jobs at the moment and is waiting for his next orders.. He is military and I am at home mother.
