I woke up this morning having a disturbing dream regarding my H being with another woman. It started my day off with tears & sadness. I feel physically nauseous & sick thinking about everything.
I have been praying & fasting for a breakthrough in our sitch and I wonder if that was part of it - for me to learn the truth about my H. However I can't help but wonder what the actual truth is at this point. It's hard to decifer what is false (to get me to go through with the D) and what is truth. Uuugggg.
I am continuing to pray for my H, our M, and will wait for God's guidance how to proceed. I really have idea what what He will ask of me next. I am about 20 days into my fast with only liquids and have another 20 to go! I have been receiving some amazing support from people God has obviously placed in my life right now to lift me up and support me.... and everyone on here is part of it :-)
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
