As my life moved into my next half century I was riding my faithful steed in the bright moonlight at midnight. Awesome. The big surprise was a party for me last night, prebirthday. A good friend arranged it all and H had no options other than be there. Too funny! He almost acted like a H too while everyone was around. The best line of the night came from my 9 year young greatniece. I was reading a card that said "There is worse things than getting older" and she looked at me wide eyed and said "there is???" Big laugh! The most flattering line was a lady said "I thought you were younger than me by 5 years or more" and she is 49.
This morning H came in the bedroom and said Happy Birthday and gave me a backrub, and left a card laying on the table for me, a funny card and he even signed it Happy Birthday. Another babystep! lol
Before I left for work I backed up the hill to the indoor arena and looked over the land. I felt a sense of satisfaction with what I've accomplished in life so far, with a twinge of pain and wonder about H. Then in typical fashion the thoughts of 'so much to do yet' took over as I rushed off to work.
I remember a remark from H a year or two ago. He said 'you always push for more.' Well, he's right! I don't want status quo, I want bigger and better! I'll keep nudging him along and backing off until I get where I need to be - with H or without H. M is sure different than I ever dreamed about.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
