Thanks Karen. You are so right that I need to give time to things and not be so reactive. I think I know all that I need to do but putting it into practice is so hard. I need to break these habits. Funny thing is that my sister and BIL always say that my H is on drugs. They are convinced of it based on his actions. Mind you that H doesn't even drink - one beer knocks him out. But his behavior is definitely crackheadish. \:\) I'm working slowly on my flaws. It really is harder than I could imagine. I keep saying that getting my BA and master degrees were easier than this.

I love the advice you give by the way. I know that unfortunately that comes from experience - but as the saying goes, experience is a good teacher! I will try to add some fun stuff into my life. I think you're right that I'm not enjoying life enough. I really don't have a fun activity that I do on a weekly basis. I think that actually would enrich my life. I go out with friends on and off and have been going to the gym at work but I think a fun hobby would be good for me. I have no hobbies per se. I think a hobby that I'm doing with a group would be good for me. Will look into that!!