you want to stay friends with him and see if there is a chance, in the future, if they ever break up.
No, I would like him to choose me. Of course I know there is a strong chance he may not do so, I am fully realistic, but I can increase my chances right by being a strong, confident and attractive woman.
I'm not hanging around either in the meantime waiting, I hope that has been evident from my posts. I have a great life, it is tinged with loneliness sometimes and I have sad moments but don't we all. It is particularly hard at the moment with the difficult finance questions we are going to have to face and the physical and emotional turmoil of moving but I have no intention of sitting around waiting. I'm getting on with my picnic as Lisa would say.
I have fun flirting and stuff with men that come across my path and who express interest - that guy travelling halfway across London on the tube just to get my number was hilarious - but my heart is in my marriage. It might not be forever, H is taking a huge risk with that but for now, as I have seen progress after being so patient I can afford to be patient a little longer and carry on with what I am doing. It seems to be working, and anyway I have no choice in the matter as we have to interact over this house move. I want to make those as positive as possible.
