Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

Drinks were good. Light. Airy. We had some wings. That's about it.

I didn't bring up the conversation because earlier in the day she told me she got her test date for this weekend for her big national boards retake. She has to pass else repeat the year. Next week she begins finals.

Last night she was edgy. She started talking in a snippy and snide manner. I calmly told her she could talk to me differently and turned around.

We ended the evening watching tv together on the couch and talking about the kids. Laughing and talking. A quick have a happy birthday tomorrow (it's both our birthday today) and that was about it. She left a note this morning wishing me a happy birthday. We'll open presents tonight. She leaves for her test in Lynchburg tomorrow. Then Sunday we go to Easter service and then her aunt's house to be with her family for Easter. My family is all in California.

I still need to ask what she means when she says she can't expect me to wait for her. That puzzles me.

On my end, I think my biggest hesitation with the separation with her is that I don't want to put my kids through this. That, and I don't really know what she has in mind (as my MC pointed out). I have to get her to doc it which should show her I'm serious about the consideration and will help me to better understand what she's thinking.

Meanwhile, work is on me about my hours. Sheeesh. This is going to be one wild ride of a birthday today I think. Meeting this afternoon to discuss

Good news came yesterday. My sister is having a girl! I tried to not say I told you so, but it slipped out :0) My grandmother is also doing well - she's walking around and is not needing as much help these days. My grandfather is not, but that's to be expected.

All in all, I'd have to say that I'm going to buckle myself in today and see what happens. I'm sure the best is yet to come, but not sure I'll still be able to feel anything when it gets here. My emotions seem, stunted somehow.

AJ