"are you happier now?"

[sage]

what it all boils down to is I don't trust h...at all..every thing he tells me I question in my mind..

LL -- Is it that you really don't trust h? (Like, you honestly think for a second that h would lie about this kind of thing...) or is it that your brain is on autopilot questioning everything he says? Just out of habit or fear...like "he could be lying about this".

Do you see the difference?

One is related directly to h and your ability to trust him.

The other is sort of a defense mechanism...a running commentary in your head...that probably has more to do with the overall situation than with how you currently feel about H in particular.

Sage - who KNOWS what she means but isn't all all sure this post made sense.