puter still not allowing me to process an order...but I will...or ok at least I'll pick up the written copy that I already have and read a bit more of it!
still feeling a bit of yuck... still feeling like ow should go... been pondering how the heck I'm supposed to trust h when I've already learned what a good liar he is and how easily I can be fooled by him. still wanting to sit down and hash some important crap out with h but don't have the energy to or much desire to really do so productively.
h sat in the basement watching the sox last night while I sat upstairs... tonight I'm going out with some friends.. tommorow night I'll read or work on a pooh & friends latch hook rug for dd's room. fri night I'll do whatever I didn't do thurs night and sat night we'll go to the drive-in.
I'm sure h wont mind me keeping myself otherwise occupied until sat and then thereafter until some other issue that he chooses to aviod by asking me on a date arises.
here's a strange note...h had some gravel delivered for the end of the driveway...I assumed the man driving the truck knew him because he stood there talking and talking to me after I told him where h wanted the stuff dropped...turns out he doesn't know h at all...but he stood there talking to me for at least 15 min...odd if ya ask me...should I have shut the door in his face and said ok dump it there good bye? would I be as foolish as ow and let him come back again to just talk to me??? certainly NOT! but I suppose I can see how easy it can happen to a pathetic person...guess I'm not nearly as pathetic as I sometimes think!
