Hey Rob.. thanks for sticking with me.. god this rumbles on!
Hey Silver.. I hope it helped a little. I thkn that my ex is certainly very depressed and therefore self-obsessed right now and for some reason, he confides in me still and admits (as I suspected) that I AM still his best friend.. so I get the privielge of hearing all the complaints and how everyone is letting him down and it surprises me that he doesnt realise that he is letting ME down. But he does. And your H knows.
Well.. I had an epiphany.. I always said I wouldnt date, its love or nothing for me.. well love came back to me.. true love and I have to be honest.. I know this isnt just a chance, or fun, it was a very real love at the time and 15 years doesnt make that any less so.. we have both matured.. but I will be getting myself into a tricky position by seeing the Piscean. I am now free all day Saturday, my ex is away in Wales and may see me Sunday.. so the path is clear. Like I said. Dangerous. My BFF got frustrated with me earlier, she thinks ex is a mess and will NEVER sort himself out, but I diagree, or at least I havent given up on him like she has, for HIS sake even, not mine. I want him to be happy. And rightly or wrongly.. I do still miss him and although he moaned at me today.. I'd still give anything for him to come here and curl up in bed with me.
SO I have a horrible feeling I am bizarrely going to get a very stark choice between the two great loves of my life, in the same month (May?). And both I would happily of stayed with forever, if THEY hadnt messed it up owing to their own issues. It could be a 2 horse race.. neck and neck.. a photo finish.
