Thanks bnd. Sometimes I wonder if the babysteps are dependent on how positive I can stay and portray in these posts. It is surely different than last year, and the year before that, and the year before that........ Slow and steady is an UNDERSTATEMENT!
This is something new. I have to go pick up a dad and daughter from the county airport. They live about 3 hours drive time from here and are flying in with their private plane to see their horse they brought for training.
I'll be better after tomorrow.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
As my life moved into my next half century I was riding my faithful steed in the bright moonlight at midnight. Awesome. The big surprise was a party for me last night, prebirthday. A good friend arranged it all and H had no options other than be there. Too funny! He almost acted like a H too while everyone was around. The best line of the night came from my 9 year young greatniece. I was reading a card that said "There is worse things than getting older" and she looked at me wide eyed and said "there is???" Big laugh! The most flattering line was a lady said "I thought you were younger than me by 5 years or more" and she is 49.
This morning H came in the bedroom and said Happy Birthday and gave me a backrub, and left a card laying on the table for me, a funny card and he even signed it Happy Birthday. Another babystep! lol
Before I left for work I backed up the hill to the indoor arena and looked over the land. I felt a sense of satisfaction with what I've accomplished in life so far, with a twinge of pain and wonder about H. Then in typical fashion the thoughts of 'so much to do yet' took over as I rushed off to work.
I remember a remark from H a year or two ago. He said 'you always push for more.' Well, he's right! I don't want status quo, I want bigger and better! I'll keep nudging him along and backing off until I get where I need to be - with H or without H. M is sure different than I ever dreamed about.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Thanks bnd, BM, and kat! My day was real good, although I didn't hear from H after I sent him a txt that I was expecting him to ask me to lunch and put a lol behind it.
Spring has sure sprung in the horse world. Everyone wants something! I feel very blessed to be busy and productive!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Happy Birthday WC! Thank you for coming by my thread the other day and saying Hi. I am happy to read about the good things happening with your H.
Life has been very busy, and also happy for H and I. We just spent the best weekend together that we have had in about a year and a half. Nothing elaborate, but lots of laughs and fun, with friends and family.
Every day I thank God for my blessings. For this site, and all of you.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Thanks PS, you've been with me so long. 1hope, it's nice to hear the happy in your posts. Keep working on it!
This is such a crazy whirlwind these days. H and I are busier than a one legged man in a butt kicking contest. We have a BIG event coming up and H wanted to 'pack up' things last weekend. It didn't happen as planned, and we had conversations about when to try again - Monday evening. In the morning I told H that soandso was coming to help bla bla bla. No show H to help that evening. Friend and I did as much as we could, but I called H for pertinent info and also asked why he wasn't home to help. H called back and said he hadn't planned on being home that evening as he had other priorities that needed to be done. He also said he remembered that I told him in the morning that soandso was coming to help. Whatever, H showed up a couple hours later at almost 11pm when all was loaded except what needed his input.
Today, I called H and said I was running errands and asked if he needed things from the same place or had already been there. H called back in a few minutes in a REAL happy voice and asked who I was? Then told a funny story that he thought he was returning my call and ended up calling my sister instead. That explains his happy voice, he might be talking to someone else! Why don't I get the happy voice?....
In the course of the convo I asked if he had a chance to complete some other things. H said no that was what he was going to do last night until he got called home. I asked why if he wasn't planning to be home to help he didn't just SAY that when we talked in the morning, and at least I would have known not to expect him and dealt with it without bothering him or expecting him. No answer.
Communication at it's best again!
There's a few things that don't 'feel' right about some things H is saying. I won't ignore it totally but I am trying to just let it slide due to the high stress this week and my over active suspicious mind during this anniversary period of ow memories.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
