I am begining to thing that h and I just have different ideas about what m should be.
m for me...sure there's the house and kids and bills and all that stuff. but m more importantly is sharing life with another, being friends, being lovers, being a part of eachothers lives.
it seems to me that h's idea of m is.. man goes to work, pays bills, takes care of the yard, occassionally listens to w talk about life stuff, goes to football games, watches sports, occassionally to keep w happy spends time with her.
thing that throws this theory out the window is h's r with ow?
if h is a loner, content to work, eat, sleep and watch sports and only on occassion have an intimate r with a woman...then why was he spending so much time with ow? what were they talking about, what was their r that he would go to her house 3x a week? 3x a week even if only for 45 min or so is far more than I get here...unless of course I am to count the time that h simply spends in the house doing his own thing? I doubt very much that h was simply doing his own thing when he'd visit ow.
it appears that ow's house is no longer for sale...the fact that her house was to sell was the supposed only reason she was still a customer..I've finally questioned h about this and he still has no answer about removing her from his customer list...did state that when he does have to go to her house to service it he calls ahead to let her know when he will be there and she is not there when he goes and he is not alone going there anyway. claims that he'd be more likely to bump into her driving around that town than he would servicing her house so what's the difference...big diff to me!
the longer ow is a cust...the longer part of me stays away from h.
h has really screwed thing up...he was not ready to come home when he did...the appologies I got in the begining mean little to me because he still talked to her afterward...she is still a customer. Is it all about ow...no...it is about the fact that h either just doesn't want a r or he doesn't want one with me.
