LBS need help and support #2

[song]

One more nail in the coffin…

I saw W today briefly when I went by the house to drop off S12’s birthday present. We talked for a few minutes about nothing much, and then I commented “You look sad”
W – “I’m tired”
Me – “Well if there’s anything I can do to help, let me know, I know this is a busy time”
W – “We just need to talk – we haven’t talked since the 6 months has gone by” (6 months is what we agreed to for separation with no decisions, involvement of Lawyers, etc.)
Me – “Sure, whenever you want”
W – “Well you know how I feel”
Me – “Yes, and you know how I feel, so I guess we’re still at an impasse”
W – “I’m just tired of being in Limbo, aren’t you tired of this?”
Me – “Yeah, of course I am. I’m ready to move home and work on things whenever you’re ready”
W – “That’s not what I mean. I’m ready to move on. This is very hard on me, and it’s very hard on the kids.”
Me – “Yes, it’s very hard on all of us. But we obviously don’t see the same solutions to the issues, so we’re still at that impasse.”
W – “Well, I just can’t live like this indefinitely”
Me – “I understand that.”

At that point S12 walks in and says “What are you guys talking about?”
W – “Oh nothing, so did you pick out the pictures you want to use for your project?”
Me – “I Gotta go back to work – see you guys later” and then I give S12 Hug and kiss and leave.

So… as is tradition, we talked around the issue without her coming right out and saying “I want a D” but that was definitely the message – loud and clear. She has a tendency to be very headstrong, yet circumspect in her decisions, and the fact that she gave it 6 months and is still not softening up at all gives me little hope of a turnaround.

I don’t know what to do – I’ve given her space, I’ve worked on myself, I’ve stopped pursuing, I’ve prayed and prayed and prayed and put it in God’s hands, yet the runaway train barrels down the track, heading for certain destruction, and I am like a deer in the headlights frozen in fear.

If anyone has advice, suggestions, feedback, comments or encouragement, please help me out. I feel so down right now.