truth be told...I honestly don't know anymore how h would react if I kept myself busy with other things...
I did just finish an emt course that kept me out of the house two nights a week...didn't seem to make a diff to him.
I don't know if he would resent my being busy with other things or if he would find it a relief...then he wouldn't have to feel any pressure to spend time with me.
so last night I bought the new book for book club and started reading...I'll continue to read each night unless asked otherwise (I don't care much for tv that's h's thing) tonight I am going to hang with some girlfriends...and tommorow night believe it or not h and I will be going out to look for a big screen tv for the basement.
oooops...gotta go pick up son from his first day of school!! and yes the seemigly oh so tough LL shed a tear as he walked away holding the teachers hand and turned back smiling to say "bye mama"
