H sent me a text last night that saying he had seen a commercial for Alaska Week in the Discovery channel and it made him feel sad and lost...

I want so badly to tell him that I wish you understood that you dont have to feel like this, or you have always had a home, theres no reason for you to feel lost, or something!

Ive been biting my tongue though, the only thing I said was that Alaska would still be here when he was able to come back, so dont be sad. He said Thanks. And that was it.

Did I miss some opportunity? One reason I didnt say more was that hes usually kind of tanked by that time of night, and I was afraid that if we did have some kind of breakthrough, I didnt want him to recant it the next day.

Should I say those things? Why is he being so confusing? Is it really just alaska that he misses so bad... or is it us?

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...