Yeap, very addictive personality I have. And its like when I start the brakes just fail. I called again. I need to be committed to a mental institution I swear.
I did get sucked right back in. I call H and told that he can't have his keys b/c no man should have keys to two houses with a woman in each. Then he went into he didn't want his keys back and he didn't expect them back. And I said no you sure did give that impression. He said how he's needs time to work on himself and that things are not right. And I said how can a man be working on himself by being in another relationship and that people who are working on themselves take time to themselves to figure things out. And he said that how I keep trying to rush things and he needs time because things aren't right with us. And things aren't right with me either and I need to be working on myself as well but I don't see that. I agreed that I have faults I know. And I was like take all the time you need but I will not be waiting around wasting my life. And that I could be waiting 10/15 years from now.
Then I said ok, since you need time and you need me to give you time, how much time exactly do you need? H: I don't know. Me: And what exactly are you doing to fix things? H: nothing right now. Interesting isn't it. Things aren't right between us, but you are not doing anything to fix things but you are in a full blow R living with another woman but you want an indefinite amount of time. Then I said, it sounds like you know exactly what you want. And he said he knows it doesn't make sense us like this and maybe we should just do the divorce and move on. I told him I've been seriously thinking about it because of the financial responsibility that he has walked away from. And of course he went into how he was kicked out, etc.
But, guys, bottomline, I THINK I NEED TO GET DIVORCED. I'm here starting to cry at work.
