Ok, I'm pretty good at wasting your time asking for your opinion and not waiting to get a response. I called H back. First went into telling him that I'm not speaking to him not to be childish etc. but I need to get over hima and move on with my life and this is the best way for me to do so. Then Went into talking about the bldg, not a calm conversation at all. He accused me of not paying the mortgage on the bldg and using the $ to pay the mortgage at home. I denied it b/c I have not paid a dime of the rent on the mortgage and I asked him even if I did, what did he expect - me to be homeless. Then he went into how he thought I would be taking care of the bills at the bldg and he's been going over to the bldg and doing work and I should have been taking care of my end. I then went into how he shouldn't expect the bldg to last with us living like this and his grandparents who have a bldg like ours and its all paid for didn't get to where they are by grandfather living like that, which is true!. Then he talked about he's been paying his bills. And how he left b/c I kicked him out and then I hanged up on him. But I called back. H must be smoking some crack I tell you.
Anyway, I feel like I have regressed by making this call because instead of it being solely about business it was all R talk on my account I think. I even brought up that when I think about it, before we got married he was cheating, brought a child into the marriage, and for the 5 years we've been married, he has not been faithful even for one full year. And then he professed that he was faithful in the beginning years. Whooohoo!! The man makes me sick.
Then get this, he goes into how hard its been on him and that he's working on things trying to figure things out. Whoooooo the man makes me mad. How in the world can he be working on crap by living with another woman. Does he think I'm a fool. In fact, I don't even think this is about fooling me, I think H is fooling himself. He makes me sick to my tummy!!
