Quote: Then I remeber that love is a choice and the only way that I can get those feelings back is doing the things that helped create them in the first place. Maybe try doing those things and your feelings will come back and you wont have to question them very often.
but to me the "doing those things that bring about the feelings" part isn't happening...no matter how many times I try to "ask for what I want" no matter how direct or evasive I am about it...it just doesn't seem to happen....
it will be almost a year from the time that h said "I think I'm confused" and then proceeded to start spending time with me working toward comming home...during that time I asked that we do something once a week...or more specifically that he ask me to go out somewhere anywhere...that never happend...so since then I've reduced my request to something like...can we set asside one night a week that is for "us"...we don't have to leave the house..we can just get the kids to bed on time and play cards or darts or rent a movie or something....his response to that request..."I don't want to commit to something like that..because what happens if I can't" in other words..what if he runs late at work or if something comes up...to me that's a sad sad exuse and leaves him doing nothing instead letting weeks go by...me never knowing if tonight he will choose to go watch football or something by himself or if he will grace me with his presence somewhere else in the house.
I'm tired of making suggestions... I'm tired of making requests... I'm tired of being told to have patience...and things just never seeming to happen. I'm tired of feeling like things are not much different than they were...and we know where that lead.
