I know that there are some days I feel very much like you. DID I make the right decision with fighting for this m. Why this and why that. Then other days things are great and I feel really happy. I think m is a lot this way it has its ups and downs. Some days I think to myself do I really love my W. Then I remeber that love is a choice and the only way that I can get those feelings back is doing the things that helped create them in the first place. Maybe try doing those things and your feelings will come back and you wont have to question them very often.