Need advise and support - desperately

[Jerri]

Hi
I posted my original story in the MLC forum (MLC Maybe). I had one coaching session so far with Jody who advised LRT. So since 23rd March have been keeping all communication to minimum - just text and e-mails - all financial stuff. I don't see him at all - he is living 80 miles away and spending his weekends (I think) with his sister and BIL out on LI. First I'm not sure if LRT is the way to go - he always accused me of being "cold" and "emotionless" - I'm not, I tend to think a lot and I always found it really hard to talk to him, mainly because he never really let me talk (he did all the talking) and whenever I tried to say anything he'd interrupt and start putting his own interpretation on everything.
This coming Saturday I had planned to go and see my daughter (she's in college in Florida) in her rowing competition in NJ.
Was hoping my husband would be there so he could see the new, improved me (physically anyway). Well, my daughter messed up big time and has been suspended from the rowing team - so my plan is shot to hell. I'm just having such a hard time and just keep wondering whether I should just go file for a separation. He has made no moves to do so - in fact the only people who know about the separation are his parents, two sisters and their husbands. The only reason an uncle of his knows is beause I told him. I keep reading his e-mails to me in which he says the marriage is over, that he doesn' want to live the next 23 years of his life with me that everything is just too late.......
Jerri