Thanks all. I know you mean well. First, I have to clear up something. I don't know if my x was cheating on me while we were reconciling, but looking back, he had to of. He told me that he didn't know where the OW was, nor had he heard from her and didn't know how to get in touch with her. He also said he would never, even if our marriage broke up, want to see her again. Divorced, and lo and behold they're back together. She was here the whole time. (she had supposedly moved to the other side of the US). It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out.
Yeah, I know I'm still in the anger phase. You know the story from rags to riches, well, I'm the opposite. Only because I put my heart and my trust in men, marriage and the sanctity of marriage and in the end, I got screwed.
I did get into a relationship really quickly, I thought I was ready, but looking back, I was overwhelmed with life problems and I had very poor coping skills and my anger was transferred to my fiance. He had enough and pretty much threw me to the curb. That was another blow to my ego, deserved, but on my butt for the 3rd time. When does it stop?
I know I need to recover from all of this, but I really don't know how. I don't even know what I want at this point. I don't trust my judgment and I honestly can say, I don't know what "I" want! And, I don't know how to fix that!
