It's Complicated! Part 5

[glamgirl]

Thanks everyone for your insight. I was driving to pick up D5 today and had an overwhelming feeling of I can't take this anymore.

My h on one hand acts like all is good, spends time with us, talks of the future, how he loves me and the kids and then bam goes in hibernation as if we don't exist. It is just such odd behavior for me to comprehend.

In the same token, life is moving ahead fast and furiously and I don't want to be stuck anymore, trying to figure anything out anymore. I feel that my h and his life is just dragging me down. I just can't walk this path anymore.

I wasn't really thinking that I am that available to my h. I was looking at depression as an illness and didn't feel like turning my back was the right thing to do. I will have to put more thought into that. I just try to live my life the best I can, but with the kids it's difficult since I have to pay a sitter to have free time, but maybe it's time to get that going again.

H turned 40 on Sunday. I turn 48 this Friday. H's mom called on Sunday to wish h a happy birthday. H refused the call, just blew his mom off. I really stand in amazement that this is happening. The h I knew wouldn't be so disrespectful to his own mom.

I remember when I met my h, he was so attentive and loving towards his mom. He even said at one point that his mom and dad would come live with us when they were old. Now it's like h hasn't had a convo with them in over a year. I really admired my h and the relationship he had with his family. It was something I didn't have with my own family and was so impressed by the generousity and kindness of his family. Now that closeness is reduced to this. Wow!

I tried calling h today. No answer nor did he call back. Does he not care or really what is it?