Strange New World

[native]

Well, we are going to Disney World this coming Saturday. Sure, we will have a lot of fun. My parents are going with us.

Otherwise, we worked/played in the yard last Sat. And Fri. I took her to work b/c she was acting sick the night before so I kept her out of school, but she turned out to be fine.

So we went to a farm supply place near the job I was doing and played with baby chicks they had for sale there. She did not want to leave.....

Weather is great, Spring is here and so far, my work is doing well, when it seems that everyone around me is struggling or worried about their jobs.

I know we don't have the same beliefs, but I have to be honest, when my wife left me with all the bills and the mortgage ( $1400 which she used to pay), I did not know how I would be able make it, so I prayed that God would provide me with the work I needed to take care of the bills and a little more. Normally I would not pray for such things, because I don't think a relationship with God is about money (and to be honest, I presumed myself self-suffecient) but I had no idea how I was going to survive financially based on the past few years.

So far, since August, I have had enough to pay my bills and a little more.

I am just grateful and plan to keep praying.

And too, somehow, all this seems to be part of a bigger plan.

For the first 8 mos., up until W had her breakthrough, I was angry. I felt betrayed, rejected, and in general treated unjustly after all I had done and been for her.

Then, as she started to have some mental/emotional breakthroughs, I began to see that truth was just beginning to enter her clouded thoughts. Regardless of the pain all of this has caused me, I am glad for her that she is beginning to get real with her issues. And truth and God are intertwined as far as I'm concerned. So, I see the illusions are being peeled away for her.

I hope for her healing. I may not be there for her when the full scope of truth finally dawns on her, but I wish her the best.