You are correct and there is hope I may FINALLY be getting it...at least I hope so.
I talked w/Jody yesterday and we went over the same things.
The game plan w/XW is to limit all conversations and e-mails will not go to her unless they answer questions. Her diatribes will be unheeded and just stored.
It is high time I accept the fact that I will forever be wrong in her eyes and thus, the need to convince her otherwise is completely and utterly futile.
I'm sorry if I've frustrated my friends out there. This is a massive reconstruction process I've been undertaking and I am getting better, but I'm a bit hard-headed, I guess. In reality, we males are all just DAMs deep down inside, so what did you expect?
It also helped to talk w/Jody and understand how XW still has me squirming even though that isn't the path I'd choose to take. However, I have been paranoid about her going after me to reduce my time w/D further, so I felt I needed to respond to "protect myself." So my words are carefully constructed, but all the interactions do is provide me w/some anxiety over the situation.
Thus, I've been giving her the power. It is difficult to understand sometimes but the more you go through w/things the smarter you become. Experience is the best teacher after all.
In fact, Will Rogers once said "Life is a funny teacher. You take the test, then you learn the lesson." That feels like me right now.
So, I'm hoping my set will drop very soon so I can enter back into the world of being a "man" again. I've been away too long.
