I completely understand your feelings of pain right now in your life. It is nice that you have some db'rs who are coming here to support and encourage you. I, too, want you to make some goal for yourself and your relationship and completely submerge yourself and hold onto hope.
Since you have people who want to support you and, also, need support, I encourage you to begin your own posting by establishing your very own subject within the mlc forum. This way you can have your own identity within the dbing community and people with similar issues will gather there to help support you.
