Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

One of the questions that was brought up today to me: how do you date somebody that doesn't want to be with you? I can't answer that at the moment, but it does tap into part of how I feel. Part of me.

My biggest concerns are the kids. I'm worried how this will look to them. How this will impact their relationships in the future. How they will be scarred by this.

I can't change that pain for them except to keep from prolonging it. Perhaps. I suppose its really not over anyway. She's still here. She hasn't filed.

I was advised to get her to write down her proposal in detail. To also write down what I am and am not willing to live with; keep that to me for now. Then take the proposal back to the MC and work it out. Then bring the kids along for the final hoorah.

I hate this sh** but I have to see it through. My feelings are about exhausted. I can only imagine hers but I can't help that. I know from the marriage counselor that she's thinking about us all the time and its wearing her out. I'm having a hard time seeing that, but it comes down to I don't know what I don't know.

Time to start working.

I hate this sh**. I need a vacation.

AJ