Ha.. you guys! Well.. me and the Piscean texted a little today.. he was being very sweet. I had sent my ex one too at 4pm.. then got a reply earlier and as I picked up my phone I thought, who is this from?? ...it was the Piscean. Oh dear god.. and I have to admit to being a little disappointed ! Guess that says it all hey.
Ok... brain.. fried.. eggs sunny side up and a side of mushrooms...
Well beggars can't be choosers and I must admit to feeling a bit bouyed by my old love's interest in me.. still.. I would prefer my newer old love to show some interest!! Oh.. there goes a pig past the window...
I was reading that Stonsy book, it says that if both your parents had depression (both of his did) then you have a 75% chance of being depressed yourself! No sh*t! And it took him a LONG time to admit it.. bless him. I wonder if he tells anyone about how depressed he feels? Maybe G.. but seems not Helen (how in hell does she not notice !?? His eyes are like the living dead...)
Maybe she doesn't see it because it doesn't directly affect her. When someone focuses on themselves they don't see what is plainly in front of them. Who knows?
I just wanted to say to you that you have to be one of the most humorous people I've ever 'talked' to. You're posts are so full of wit and punchiness. I LOVE IT! Someday we HAVE to meet in person.
Have a wonderful day!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Thanks Mish!! Thats really kind of you... I have been told I am witty, via the medium of writing! I'm a right chatterbox with people I know, and that includes cyber typing friends, aka, you !!
Well.. had a hard afternoon.. he called me (the current Leo ex, lol) and sounded terrible.. hour and twenty.. as usual hey! And he brushed over Friday night, so is clearly embarressed, said he was "hammered".. and reluctantly offered me a lift home Friday, said he 'cant let me get the train as he is going up the same day'.. or something, so I said.. well, thanks for offering me a lift, thats nice of you, but perhaps you'd like to drive yourself up and have a little space and a relaxing drive? He sounded relieved and said, he did want space to think, that he wanted "some thinking time"...
the rest of the convo he sounded very down, was VERY negative, moaney and has been off sick the past few days. He made it sound like he has been 'alone' and no reference to her, saying stuff like he had been watching sport, or in bed early, or just ate beans on toast for 2 days (so she hadnt cooked for him clearly).
He complained about ALL his friends about how hurt he is that noone calls him, that someone texted and he texted back saying yes ok, lets have a chat and they never called and how he hadnt seen his BMF for 4 months.. and the whole thing I am thinking, you have the AUDACITY to be moaning to ME about all of this and tell me how hurt and ignored yuou feel? And despote the whole convo being about HIM, he also said (a usual complaint of his) that when he does talk to people, they are pretty self involved and just talk about themselves the whole time and dont even really ask him anything about himself or his life...
..and he didnt ask me anything about me, my life or what I had been up to.
So.. I was right. He is doing again what he did to me in Sept 07.. he is going back to our hometown, alone, to think.. to make his decision to end it, probably to see if he misses her or not.
Also.. he said he needs me to sign a new joint tenancy on his house and so we do have to meet, but he pointed out, "its just a signature, its not that eroneous...it shouldnt take long", so he doesnt want to meet for a drink, just a cup of tea. This might be on Sunday as he is going to Wales overnight Saturday to see one of his many, BMF.
Sunday is when Venus retrogrades back into Pisces and I am supposed to see how much I mean to someone afterall.
Saturday.. I am going to go see the Piscean. I need someone to be there for ME for a change.
Yeah... he was doing his people pleasing obligation sh*t..but I really 'get him' like he said. He seemed like he did want to take me, but was undecided.. I let him off the hook and he was still umming and ahhing, so I said, well, why dont you thkn about it then? So he said he would call me tommorow. He said that several times, in a "of course I will speak to you tommorow, obviously" way and I'm thinking.. really !??? Well, thats a new one ! (or an old one.. as much of the convo was EXACTLY like it was last July.. pre-Helen and NOT like its been other times he has called me since seeing her in August).
I'm beginning to think he is crazy. Or at least no further forward. But something has shifted as he is clearly gearing up to ending it with her. Oh and I spoke too soon about Cher and G, they are on the rocks. Sigh.
I wonder if my letter will arrive tommorow from the Piscean? Its a full moon.
