I am going to have to take some time in the wee hours later tonight to re-read my threads and figure out what road I am on...and where I want to be...and how to get there.
Thought I was making progress, H came over after church Sunday and stopped to get me a pop (soda or whatever you other folks call it!) on his way...
We had a great day yesterday without kids, taking a road trip. A year ago we would have gone 85 down the highway straight there and back, he didn't want to spend alone time with me at all. Or even we would have taken separate cars.
This time we rode together in my car, we talked, joked, laughed. Made probably 2 or 3 stops along the way besides the tax stop and the lunch break, and the stop to look at cows. We took back roads, sang out loud. I would start to hum or sing a bit of a song and then stop, and 30 seconds later he would start singing the song. Little bit of mirroring...
Anyway then last night after kids went to bed, around, ten, he called me to chat about an email he got from our former K.C. realtor asking him to join facebook. So a totally unnecessary call after the kids were in bed, after a day we spent 10 hours straight together w/out kids for the first time in months...
But now I am doing that questioning myself thing after reading K's post of this morning. I WAS being that girl he would want to date on the road trip yesterday. Flirty, fun, upbeat, joking, singing, being me...
Oh well, guess I shall regroup and reread and go from there...
