thank you so much guys i will take on board any advice, robx answer to your question, about november or december she did say one night that she thinks we should have a break but she was drinking and the next day said sorry and she didnt mean it, i also remember her saying she needed a break about a year ago not long after her dad died, but she put it all down to her dad passing away, and its not me she needed a break from but the pressure, now the recent one was 4 weeks ago but it was different this time she was very cold in telling me, thanks hope this helps