I do encourage you to come as often as you can to talk to us. Even go over to other people's threads and talk to them and that way, you will build up a support system.
I know you are in pain and so many share what you are going through. The best thing to do right now......is to give her what she wants.....SPACE....and that means no communication except regarding the children. If you keep pushing.....you will lose her forever.
Be sure you read the DR book. That is a must!
Take care, Sandi
This is the best advice for you right now. Do it! Especially giving her the space that she asks for, with no communication except regarding the kids. It's hard. You've GOT TO do it. It doesn't feel like it...but it's absolutely necessary. Don't make the same mistakes that many of us here have made. Listen to these more experienced people here, learn, and take their advice. It goes against what you 'feel'...but it's sound advice.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
