He came home yesterday and went upstairs. The kids were downstairs watching cartoons. He went up there to watch the news "again". He is obsessed with watching the news that's all he ever does. I layed with him awhile, then got up, He never puts a movie on for us, or anything, just watches the news.. Anyway, my gf is supposed to be coming in my area this week, and I've been waiting for her email via fb to see what time etc.
So I came downstairs and checked it. He came down and started saying that I was addicted to fb... WTH?? I asked him if he was trying to pick a fight?? so he then started looking at all my stuff on there, now mind you I have a seperate account that is personal and one with DB so don't worry. So he proceeded on being so nasty the rest of the night. I asked him if he was run out to the store and get me some medicine, he said no. I said fine. I didn't want to take the kids out so late, and he usually doesn't mind running out. I guess it was his way of punishing me.
Took the kids to bed. I couldn't sleep, came down stairs and got a drink. Then about 1/2 hour later he calls me down to look at this patent he wants to do, but get snippy with me anyway. Then it started.
Tells me: I don't care about him because I was on fb and not with him.. tells me that that hes going to erase everything on it. Asked me about my friend and how come I didn't invite him???? I said nothing was in stone, I was waiting for her reply. Anyways, it got heated (12am at night!) He AGAIN brought up the money thing. I told him i've had it with that threat. He said well you can hold the kids over my head, what can I use??? I said how about nothing, since Ive never brought them into the equation.
It was a long drawn out night. It ended with Me reminding him about what his bf commented to me about 2 wks ago which was something along the lines of " I think H cares about it, I know he loves the boys"... What I slap that was. That tells me something ya know.
Then I went to bed. Didn't see him this morning, actually stayed in bed until he left.
I cried myself to sleep last night. He has no emotion anymore for me. Oh I also said to him how dare he check up on me, what I do on here is innocent, and lets not get into the discussion on the internet, because im not the one who was looking for sex on there.
Im worn out. He has completely removed himself from any love he had for me, ya he can be ok sometimes and even do nice things once in awhile, but he is either has a motive for it (looking for recongition from other people, yes its true) or its because the boys nag him.
He reminds me that if he leaves that I will sink like a lead ship and go running back to my parents (which he doesn't like anybody in my family) Actually he doesn't like many people.
I keep thinking once the kids are gone, is this the person I want to be with everyday. If I got sick when I was old, he would do no part in taking care of me or my needs. and this scares me to death. What do I have? A messed up relationship with my H that he feels is all my doing.
I wish I could just get in my car with my kids, and drive and keep driving. But I can't do that to them.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh what am I going to do... I just don't know. But I am going to delete my fb for db, I can't have him find it, also I will change my name on here.. I have to, to be safe.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
I asked him if he was trying to pick a fight?? so he then started looking at all my stuff on there, now mind you I have a seperate account that is personal and one with DB so don't worry. So he proceeded on being so nasty the rest of the night. I asked him if he was run out to the store and get me some medicine, he said no. 
I said fine. I didn't want to take the kids out so late, and he usually doesn't mind running out. I guess it was his way of punishing me.
