Had a bad day all around. Didn't fight with W or backslide or anything like that. Just felt terrible and depressed all day. Couldn't get problems out of my head. Miss my W terribly and to top it off, went to D's bball game tonight and W looked so good. I miss her so much and there is nothing I can do. I will chalk this up to just one of those days and hopefully tomorrow will be better. I did go out to a watch party tonight with some friends at work and it was alot of fun and then before I left the OM showed up. I just can't get away without something reminding me of everything.
I just need to go to bed and maybe get some sleep tonight. Does anyone know if you can get addicted to ambien? I can't seem to sleep more than 3-4 hours without it. I tend to take one about 3-4 nights in a row and then try to go a 2-3 without it. This really sucks!
