Glam, I believe you are looking at the world through very crystal clear glasses and see reality for what it is...maybe it would do you a world of good to sell the home and move somewhere else and start fresh. Any ideas as to where you would like to live? What type of positions are you seeking?
As for your h, maybe it's time to let him go completely and when he sees that you have done so, he just might tell you honestly what he wants. Up to this point, I do not think he's been totally honest w/you about what he wants. He may not be baked up completely, but in some ways, in the back of his mind, maybe he feels that you don't deserve him after all he's put you through. Maybe he's hoping you'll file and then he will not have to deal w/the guilt of doing so himself. One just never knows w/the mlcer and especially one that's 3/4 baked. They test you over and over again and then, some never completely bake up. Your h is close and yet, he's not ready to leave the comfort of the baking pan.
Glam, I believe you are doing the right thing by putting the house on the market. You've been at this a very long time...now it's your turn to do what Glam needs to do in order to make a fresh start, live her life and go on living in today's world. I'm behind you 100% in whatever you need to do to get ahead.
Good luck!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
