It was another beautiful and warm day. I met yet another guy today and it was just the weather for a long walk. These men are all nice people but I just cannot imagine having them as a partner.
I am not sure whether I will continue writing on the Internet platform. I found that when I meet a guy in a place face to face it is easier for me to communicate. Unfortunately, I have only just met one guy like this.
I usually come home from a date and think that I am not sure at all whether I am doing the right thing.
Yesterday I sent the guy who I got to know on the week-end an e-mail but so far he has not replied. I haven't really expected an answer in any case. As I said I didn't trust him at all. I think he was just out to have a good week-end. - When I was at the concert with him my thoughts suddenly drifted off and I was thinking that I would rather be here with XH than with a stranger. I felt quite sad and I had to pull myself together not to show my teary eyes. He asked me if I had a list of things I would like to do. He said that life is not worth living if one has no dreams anymore. I told him that I didn't really have a list and my dreams could not be fulfilled that's why I have given up having any. But I would have one thing I would still like to do. Then I told him about the film "The Bucket List" which he didn't know of.
All spring flowers are out and the lawn in my garden looks so pretty at the moment. I have to do some garden work tomorrow or else the weeds will get out of hand and the shrubs will grow like crazy.
No word from XH anymore. – I have not written to him anymore since he sent me his cold reply.
