Just missing you guys a little!

[Amy M]

((((Jon, Sandi, Sam, and Tawnya)))) Love you guys and all the rest of you sending prayers up on my behalf today. I'm doing okay. It's been an emotional few days to say the least. I'm doing better right now...the anger has been expressed (maybe not int he most healthy manner, but I just said what I had to say) and the D has been filed. We are on our way...

H was scheduled to go in to sign his name to all the documents today and I was scheduled to go in tomorrow (since I was supposed to be on a business trip today). But, since my trip was canceled, I decided this morning that I'd just be there during his appt. and go ahead and get things taken care of. I prayed about it last night and all day today, and I felt like it was the right thing to do.

So, I arrived early. He came in...acted surprised to see me. I simply said my trip was canceled. He tried to converse with me. I have him short answers and read a magazine. Then, the attorney came out and gave us the spill and all the documents. She said H hadn't properly filled out his financial affidavit and gave it back to him to complete. And she left us to review the documents. He asked for help with his affidavit. I smiled and said, "You are now officially on your own. Good luck." The process was fairly painless. He didn't mention the CS to 1st wife. So, we signed and left the papers with the attorney and walked out together.

Sitting at the curb was a small, white, 2-seater, convertible. I said, "That yours?" He said, "Yes." I laughed. He said, "It's high mileage; didn't cost that much." I said, "Wow. I guess that clears things up. Classic case of MLC for sure." He shrugged and said, "Whatever." I said bye and off we went. I came by the house to use the restroom and get myself together (I didn't cry or stab him at the attorney's).

I get here and there's a card from the process server again. I'm irritated. I call him. I say, "Did you call the sheriff's office." Yes, he said. He proceeds to tell me that he had said he'd try to stop by the house to get his papers from the guy. While he's doing that, I'm sorting the mail. I see something to him. I tell him. He says, "I'm sure it's about the house. Open it." I do. Not about the house...about a 2007 boat. Interesting...we don't have one of those. I am furious.

So, I go off..."How dare you use my address on your boat crap. How dare you lie to me about who purchased the boat. How dare you hide the fact that you bought a car and a boat from me. How dare you continue to lie and disrespect me. How dare you, how dare you, how dare you..." And then, I hang up...because I'm almost hysterical.

So, I take a few deep breaths, and I call him back. And, I say the following stuff: All you had to do was divorce me 3 years ago. All you had to do was say, Amy, I'm miserable here. I would have let you go. I don't deserve this. I don't deserve any of it. Please get your stuff in order so I don't get your mail or notes for you from the sheriff's office. Please get out of my life. I'm not proud of you anymore. I can't tell people that I'm proud to have chosen you for the father of my children. You are on a bad path. And, if you don't get it together, there may come a time when my boys can't be proud of you either. S7 knows that it's not okay to have a wife and GF. And, he knows about you and OW. And, if there was any doubt, having them stay over at her house this weekend has done away with that. And, my mom and my dad, now they know too. And they loved you so much, and they can't be proud of you either. All S7 and S4 talked about last night was being at OW's house over the weekend. They were in the car with Mom and Dad when I talked to them. Mom and Dad had to hear all that. Whatever you think I did or didn't deserve, you cannot for one minute feel that my parents deserve to have to hear that. I hope you know that I have loved you with all my heart (he did actually say 'I know that' at that point), and I hope that one day you will love as deeply and you will understand what that means. Now I just want to have as little to do with you as possible. Please get your business stuff out of my life. Take care of you, H.

He just responded with, "You too, Amy." And, I hung up.

How did he get here. Oh my!! I'll just keep praying for him to find his way. That's all I can do. Pray that he finds his way before things get worse for my babies.

I love you, guys! Thanks for all the support.

Amy