I'm still in the midst of processing all the new info I received yesterday. I was overwhelmingly sad & felt "disguisting" yesterday - lots & lots of tears. I feel like taking off my ring & changing my name back pronto - but that's all emotionally driven. Today I've been able to focus on work, which has been great. I got a lot of anger & frustration out in my workout today.

It feels like our entire R was a scam and full of falsehood. I feel like I was used & disgarded. It is extremely disheartening. I am just letting myself feel the emotions as they come & dealing....

I have my next appt with my MC tomorrow. I hope he will be able to help me cope.

Me:28, first M
H: 33, second M
Married: 08/08
Bomb: 10/08
H filed D and deployed: 12/08
Served: 04/09
I deploy: 07/09
Hearing date: 08/09