Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

[dday101798]

Hmmm,

interesting. I've spent the bulk of this morning reflecting and reading back on just this thread alone and even tho I'm only 5 pages in to it, I came to a realization. I feel as I do now because I forgot one key event in the past few months. Moving out of the house. I had said to her "the moment I walk out that door, there's no going back". And I think that's where I'm finally at, closure.

I think I can safely say now, the one thing that hasn't been said to me, good-bye Tracy, I love you, but I'm not in love with you.

That just puts everything at ease now. Looking back at all the times I let her bait me in with a feeling of hope for a chance, hence the title of this thread, and all those times it was just to be a safety net.

The net is gone, I dropped it at some point, you are forever in control of your own destiny now. I will be there as your friend, no more, no less. Shame, for the sake of our children it coudn't be different, but, would it have been for the better or for the worse in the long run?

I said my peace, and I've taken my faults in accountiblity for our failure. I hope someday as you have before, you acknowledge yours, but this time, take them to heart and know that I tried.