Naej.. I was kidding. Anyway, there are no gaurantees, why shouldnt I have some fun? A fling? I do still love him, but its been a long time and I have needs to! I'm not saying I would act on it, I *might* though, depends how things pan out this next week or two. I'm going to go with the flow and see what happens.
It isnt just the booze talking.. its a consistent message to me, to BMF, to BMF and W back home.. has been for months. He's just slow. I get it.. you are all EXPECTING him to do something faster! And as he hasnt, you assume he doesnt want to/isnt going to/is done with me. Have you all forgotton this is the MLC board? That he said himself he thinks he had a MLC? These thigns DO take a long time? That he is suicidally depressed and not in a good place to make (or trust) good decisions? Cyrena gets it. You are all losing patience with him perhaps, but I havent. Whats a few months out of a lifetime together? And if we dont reconcile.. well, I still havent met A-another Mr Right, so no harm done.
I wasnt anxious after seeing him, my mood didnt change, other than being a bit sad to hear him say he wants to kill himself. I do have a life, more than I had before but, naturally I'm going to talk about him alot right now, I only just saw him after 4 months. There was a lot to post.
