We have just started our separation and I am in angry phase now too. I think I blocked off any angry or negative feelings about W when I was really trying hard to save the marriage. But the other day she went ahead and filed for D and informed me by email.
After that, I started being flooded with angry feelings. Filing the D after 10yrs of marriage and 15yrs together without even trying MC together pisses me off. After going on about she wants us to be amicable and friends, she files for D while I am still trying to find a job after getting layed off just recently pisses me off. You don't tell someone you want to be friends and kick them when they are down. I started getting angry about the hurt and pain I've been feeling since the bomb was dropped. Even just last night I found myself cursing her while in my car driving off to start our separation because it hurt so so much when I said goodbye to my 4.5yr old son.
I dont want to be angry, but I am. It maybe a way my mind is trying to help me to completely drop the rope and GAL and move on with my life to stop the pain. But it's also a negative, cause even if she has a change of heart later, the anger may have made me move on too far and fast and I won't care anymore at that point. It's kind of a double edged sword I guess.
